Farewell

I feel I have fallen into the crack between two beautiful things,
I have no idea how to get back, how to climb either side of the crevasse,
I sit here wondering if someone might find me,
I know I am alone and no one is coming.
You look down, offering your hand,
You know you cannot help those who do not want to be helped,
You ask with your eyes to see if your help is wanted,
You wait patiently, unwavering, hoping.
I cannot ask for help, I can only cry,
I know I have lost the one I seek most,
I know another is in my path that I desperately need,
I must carry on, but more importantly I must find myself.
You stand beside me now, defending me from the evils of the world,
You allow no one to pester me now in my time of need,
You are forever patient with me and my deep pain,
You comfort me from the loneliness of night.
I must go before pain creeps over us all,
I know that soon it will come and it will be because of me,
I wish to hurt no one and yet I hurt many,
I will have to leave you soon.
You do not know of my plans,
You continue your days with innocence and love of everything,
You wait for me to turn and smile at your everlasting silliness,
You never give up on me and my heart longs to stay with you.
I must go before my pain explodes over you,
I have a broken heart that I cannot let you mend,
I have no way of telling you my true feelings,
I have betrayed the one I love with my love for you.
We can never be one, you and I,
We must not come together,
We must drift apart, you and I,
We cannot be us, we are not we, I am I and you are you,
I must go before the pain swallows what I have left,
I have to retreat to run from the things that scare me most,
I must not stay here any longer,
I will tell you now and I will go.

~Celeste